1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
Had a one night stand.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I never make resolutions - that way, I have nothing to break!
3. Did anyone close to you die?
My mom. I still can't believe she's gone
4. What countries did you visit?
The Republic of California
5. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Money! Okay, and maybe a boyfriend. Or a boy toy. Or some sort of male thing-a-ma-jiggy.
6. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
October 10th, because that was the day my mom died.
7. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Not committing suicide.
And in case you think that's a joke, it really isn't.
8. What was your biggest failure?
I can't help but think I failed as a daughter. I knew my mom was sick, but admittedly not as sick as she apparently was. Still, I should have known my parents were keeping something from me and I should have spent more time with them last year.
9. Did you suffer illness or injury?
In this area, I was blessed - I was pretty healthy this past year. The two health issues I had, I was able to take care of with OTC meds.
10. What was the best thing you bought?
Just one thing? I had so much luck at Goodwill this year - I found a lot of books on witchcraft and a couple of really cool tarot decks. Plus, with my dad's help I just got a Wii this week! I haven't set it up yet, but I can't hardly wait to do so!
11. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My friend, Denise's. She was a true friend when I needed one the most.
12. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
I don't like the word "made." No one can make me feel something. Yet on the other hand, their actions can trigger a reaction in me. However, there were some people I encountered whose behaviors appalled me, especially my "friend" Colleen.
I was also appalled at my own behavior with a someone. I apologized, yet I still haven't totally forgiven myself for it.
As for depressed... yeah, I had that, too. But I don't want to talk about it any more.
13. Where did most of your money go?
Mortage, bills, food and a couple of emergency repairs (house, car, etc.).
14. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
This was not a year of excitement for me, so using the "really really" doesn't apply. However, I enjoyed seeing Joel McHale at the Silver Legacy, and also was pretty excited about the Black Hat Society's annual participation in the October Wine Walk. Witches Rule!
15. What songs will always remind you of 2009?
"Good-bye to you" by Scandal. Yes, I know it wasn't released this year - but it will remind me of this 2009 for years to come.
16. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder? Happier.
ii. Thinner or fatter? Guess.
iii. Richer or poorer? Poorer, dangnamit.
17. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Reading for fun. Spending time at the park. Having sex.
18. What do you wish you'd done less of?
19. How will you be spending Christmas?
Hopefully with my dad, if the weather holds up.
20. How will you be spending New Years?
New Year's Day will be spent with my covenmates.
21. Did you fall in love in 2009?
22. How many one night stands?
23. What were your favorite TV programs?
Cougar Town. Life. Life on Mars. Medium. The Big Bang Theory.
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't tend to "hate" people. There is someone I really dislike, though!
25. What was the best book you read?
Whistling in the Dark by Lesley Kagen.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Pink (I know - she's been around for a while, but I've been listening to talk radio for the last five years or so!).
27. What did you want and get?
28. What did you want and not get?
A loving relationship with a guy.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
It's a tie between "He's Just Not That Into You" and "Julie and Julia."
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
On my birthday, I was fortunate to be able to spend it with my dad in California. We went to the flea market and then to my favorite book store, Half Price Books. As for my age - who knows? I've been lying about it for so long, I'm not sure I really even know any more.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A lot of things - but if I were to narrow it down to just one thing, I'd say "a job."
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Sweats and pajamas, and sometimes the two were mixed together.
33. What kept you sane?
Exercise, wine, classes and my friends. I have to say, I have some really excellent friends. God has blessed me richly in that department.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
It's probably still Chef Colicchio from Top Chef, although if I were younger, I am sure I'd be pining over Daniel Radcliffe.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
36. Who did you miss?
37. Who was the best new person you met?
My friend Suz. While technically I met her in July of 2008, we didn't see each other again until January of 2009. We really hit it off, and she has become one of my closest friends since then.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
Let people help. I have been independent for so long - I hate asking people for help. But this year, I had to - and I was surprised at how much people - well those close to me, anyway - not just wanted to help, but actually put their money where their mouths were and sprung into action.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"It's been a long December and there's reason to believe that maybe this year will be better than the last."
And the future?
1. Will you be looking for a new job?
Hopefully, no. I have every reason to believe this temp job will morph into something more permanent. It feels like a good fit, and I absolutely already love three of my co-workers.
2. Will you be looking for a new relationship?
Duh. Of course!
3. New house?
4. What will you do different in 2010?
I don't know if there's something in particular I feel that I have to do differently. I will continue to work on myself, to grow, to learn, to strive to be a contributing member of society. I am sure I will still have my foibles and my limitations, however I will continue to move forward, just as I have always done.
5. New Years resolution?
I don't make New Years' resolutions.
6. What will you not be doing in 2010?
One thing I definitely will not be doing in 2010 is having a baby! Other than that, who knows? "Never say never!" After all, I said I'd never have a one night stand, and now look at me, sullied, disheveled and satisfied!
7. Any trips planned?
No trips planned, but I would love to get to Carmel again this year.
8. Wedding plans?
9. Major thing(s) on your agenda?
10. What can't you wait for?
11. What would you like to see happen differently?
I would like to see government voting differently, planning differently, and organizing differently - I am so afraid of the direction our country is going.
12. What about yourself will you be changing?
This is a secret.
13. What happened in 09 that you didn't think would ever happen?
I didn't get a job until my unemployment ran out. I sincerely thought I'd only be out of a job for 3 months - 4 months tops. I never EVER thought I'd be out of work for a year.
14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about?
I think I'm pretty nice as it is, but I would certainly hope I'd be nicer. After all, becoming softer and more aware and nicer is hopefully part of the evolution process as we age.
15. Will you dress differently this year than you did in 09?
Oh yes, most definitely. Pajamas and sweats aren't welcome at acme digital services!
16. Will you start or quit drinking?
I already drink, so starting is moot. I will not quit because I do not drink too much. I pretty much only have a glass or two of wine on the weekends (and Corona Light in the summer) is a nice way to end a day. And there are some weeks I don't crack open anything at all - yet other weeks when a six pack just doesn't seem like it's going to be enough (it always is - but still I worry!).
17. Will you better your relationship with your family?
There's really only my dad, and I think we have a good relationship. However, again as he is lonely since my mom died, I will strive to spend more time with him.
18. Will you do charity work?
I would love to, but honestly? Probably not.
19. Will you go to bars?
Hmmm... It's not like I hang out in them now. I am sure that in the year 2010, I will go to at least one bar at some point in time.
20. Will you be nice to people you don't know?
Why? What's in it for me?
21. Do you expect 2010 to be a good year for you?
I actually do. I feel like I am coming out of a dark tunnel and emerging into the light.
22. How much did you change from this time last year till now?
I changed a lot. One of the things I feared most in life happened: unemployment. I have been working since I was 10 years old. I never thought there'd be a time when I wouldn't be able to find work. But it happened, and it changed me. It showed me that yes, it could happen to me. It showed me that I could rely on people - and the Universe. And it showed me that there is a chink in my armor - not sure I wanted to know that, but I do, and it's changed me.
My mom's death also changed me. It showed me that there is no going back - no changing things.
The loss of my 11-year-old relationship also changed me. I'm still not quite sure how - I guess I'm figuring that one out still. In some areas, the loss changed me in welcome ways: I feel freer and more like myself once again. In other areas, well, let's just leave that unsaid for now.
23. Do you plan on having a child?
24. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
I hope to God I will be - and I hope to add some more to the mix.
25. Major lifestyle changes?
26. Will you be moving?
I do not think so.
27. What will you make sure doesn't happen in 10 that happened in 09?
I will not gain another 10 pounds.
28. What are your New Years Eve plans?
I have absolutely no idea.
29. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight?
30. One wish for 2010?
To continue to be gainfully employed.